Countdown to moving back home....finally heard from power wash/cleaning company so he will have all of that done when I get there, I have also have scheduled Mediacom and several DR Appts. and had the heat checked.
 Now I can concentrate on getting some  much needed painting done on the inside.
 This is quite a challenge for me , moving back, but clearly the best option at this juncture'
. I wish I could click my ruby slippers together and just be there. cats too!
 I am also beginning to think about things I will miss about Georgia.
 Obviously my family and watching my Grandchildren grow is a major loss but I need to move on and am not ready to commit to a lease here with every thing so undone at home.
 There is so much to tend to...sell, dispose of , auction...
 Other things I will miss here are the FREE services of the Cancer Wellness Center and some of the great people I have met there...great healthy food, other survivors, mindfulness training etc.
 I have gotten many welcomed hugs , which I was sorely missing, but once I get back I can reconnect with my support group in DE and maybe find some other outlets at Beebe.
 I won't miss the traffic..had such a series of mishaps driving it was crazy. I think much of it was caused by stress and uncertainty.
 I will miss Debbie , my fellow foodie and martini enabler.I will miss this beautiful fall and dining alfresco  on the porch....the generally moderate temperatures. the plethora of events and activities every weekend.
 I wake up in the morning with anxiety but I generally blow the negative thoughts out of my head by focusing on breathing in and out. That is nothing new because when Jim was so sick I never knew what I was going to face when I came down stairs but those days are over....

So much has happened since my last post...I am in remission from the CANCER and am now , I hope, Strong enough to move back home.
 I realize that i have totally over extended my stay here and am now interfering in the family goals.
 I wish I was ready to move here , in m,y own place, but I have so many unresolved issues back there.
I am seeking the support from the group I have made contact with in the past and letting GO of the negative aspects....
 Jim had some very fine friends from his past...I have some too...
 I think about Jim every day...remembering him as he was and not what "WE" became.
 He would be so excited now about the ORIOLES..