Sunday, July 17, 2011

I am having a bad weekend. All of this stress is catching up with me.


Jim is improving daily, but really resents me because he is so dependent on me.


His anger flares up at the slightest thing, and I get sucked into an argument before i know it.


I try not to have hurt feelings, but asking Jim for affirmation or affection is like asking him to violate all of his principles.


He finds me "needy" and compares me to his company manager who is the biggest Ass hole in the world but is constantly looking for an "Attaboy" pat on the back. He also plots against Jim at every turn.


I just like to know if something I cooked tastes good, or if he likes something I've done for him. I am a people pleaser and i don't understand why he can't accept that and work with it.


He now is convinced that I am a narcissus......ME...the person with no identity or life to speak of.


It is just nice to know that you are appreciated. i am worn out. My days are filled with his needs.
I hope this brain injury heals. I cannot imagine living my life this way for a long period of time.